Friday, August 21, 2015

Find

It has been the fight of my life to find myself. Who am I, why am I here, does anybody care? I have never been good at socializing and bonding, getting friends, so I have mostly done the search alone, which has not made it easier.
When I found Jesus, or I let Him find me, some parts of the puzzle were revealed. But still, how can it be that I am so awkward, why am I so indifferent towards people and projects? Why do I hurt people so much with my selfishness and evilness? And how do I become a better person?
Now the search mostly has become a prayer for help, and it is up to Jesus if He wants me to find more of me on this side of eternity. I try to rest in the knowledge that He has found me.

3 comments:

Unknown said...

I think this is a common milestone for so many of us, even as adults. We are constantly growing and changing and learning who we are through these changes. Just enjoy the journey to finding yourself.

Christina Hubbard - Creative and Free said...

So glad you shared. Praying Gods peace on you as He fills every life space.

nomad said...

Welcome to FMF. It's nice to have another guy in the fold. Hope you enjoy your time with the ladies as I have. They are truly remarkable.

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