Hide

I hide myself in you God. In the shadow of your wings that's where I want to stay forever. Hide me from the evil that lives in me. Thank you that I am forgiven, that I am set free. I have to remind myself of this every day, and you, dear Holy Spirit keep on reminding me of this treasure, this out of the box transcendent freeing fact. I am free in you, Jesus! You hide me through the storms of life. In your tranquil love I live and breathe. It is the only place I can live and breathe. In the raging storms, when everything around me seems to go absolutely bankrupt, when everything seems to fall apart, then I am in your arms, in the stillness close to your heart. Make my heart, my whole being more like your heart, Lord. I am yours. In the hiding place. Hidden inside of your love, in your forgiveness, in your grace. Forgetting all that is behind, all I see is You!

Tomorrow

I have just discovered "Five Minute Friday" which is a blog link-up in which you participate by writing for five minutes each Friday on the prompt of the week . Now I do feel a bit intimidated because I only see women on display there. But nowhere I see it expressed as a women-only community. So I take the plunge and try to write for five minutes on the one word prompt of the week: "Tomorrow". If I am in the wrong, somebody please tell me, and I will start a blog link-up for men!

Tomorrow has always been a magical word for me. Tomorrow I will do the things that really needed to be done today. Tomorrow has been misused and abused. A prompt for procrastination.

Within the last few years I have learned that it is typical for people like me who suffer from depression or bipolar to be procrastinating. It is soothing to know that I am not alone in that respect. It is not the ultimate sin. But neither is it a legal excuse nor should it be taken lightly "Oh, I suffer from depression so I procrastinate and I can't help it. I can live with it - so you, who are suffering at the expense of my procrastination - you just have to live with it as well". I have to make a way out of tomorrow and stay in today with all its feelings of being in a no comfort zone for action. Beginning today! Today I will do one thing to make me stay on track for today's tasks.

Recently I have bought some watches, pilotes watches, which were produced as collector's items. They were claimed to be quality watches, so I decided to buy them. What a big disappointment when I found out that they were not at all quality. I have decided to give in a complaint on the web site of the company where I bought the watches. Up until now I have postponed it to tomorrow for several days. This I have to do today!

Then yesterday I told my colleague about the watches. He told me he had a watch in his car which I could borrow. When he came back with it he said that I could keep it.

I was stunned and very thankful. God knew my situation and provided the perfect solution to it. The watch is a beautiful blue face Casio Oceanus. It is water resistant and it automatically synchronizes with the Japanese, the American or the European time signal. In short - it is a quality watch. It has the ability to keep me focused on today. The right time is today, not tomorrow. In a worn out phrase: Carpe Diem. I have the responsibility to not postpone to tomorrow what I can do today. So help me God and use my Casio Oceanus to stay on track.

P.S. As a sidenote I right now stumbled upon this blog post http://onethingalone.com/how-to-stop-procrastinating-and-take-action/ which has this graphic imbedded. Amazing!

Oh - and I have to admit I used far more than five minutes. English is not my first language, and this is my first attempt so what do I have to sacrifice to stay within the five minutes - meaning or clarity of thought and language? I decided to not sacrificing anything.